Incase it's important for anyone to contact me, I would like to make it known that I am (well have been) taking a break from DA.

I didn't really want to comeback today either, but something stupid happened and I had to >_>;

If the bjd-ers need me, I'm still contactable on DoA.
If anyone else needs me, I'm contactable via email (cj_jaiden for hotmail)

If SheezyArtists needs me, i'm still number304 on SA.
I... am mostly posting forced art there (i.e. forcing myself to learn how to draw again) and I don't really know how often I'll post there, but I check there quite a lot since my internet life/interest has been reduced down to DoA, livejournal and Granado Espada.

And. Uhm. I dont think any doll stuff will be posted on SA, so you don't have to watch me for that.

Hahaha usually if i announce a break, I end up not leaving after all. So we'll see what happens. If I'm lucky, I won't return til late august >_>;

anyway I don't see any reason to return until way past june. or july.

Hey guys,

Sorry I haven't posted anything since forever but scraps that I thumb up in my journal. Maybe one of these days I'll go through my photos, alright?

If I owe any of you guys anything, I'm sorry but I can't do any of them right now. I'm really really sorry. You can try waiting, I guess... Again, I am sorry.

I'm a little confused right now, so it'll take a little while for things to get back in track.

Don't worry, you'll still see me around, but for now I might just be in my other two accounts and

If you want art, it's in the first. If you want selfish writing that's usually in disconnected one scenes, it's in the latter.

I'll be here occasionally to check on posts, so you guys carry on alright?

bought me a Delilah-esque bookmark that I keep with me in my purse

promises my baby boy a faceup, and my baby girl an eyelash help

David the Kiss owner gave me the photo of his Kiss he had in Ikari-esque wine wig and purple eyes. Win.

His friend Jimmy gave me the photo of one of his older pullips with Delilah hair in a patch of green.

My mom is really gonna get me a new laptop I think. She's telling me to look at other brands too cos she said the Dell one I wanted was a bit too cheap and she doesn't trust that it's good enough to last.

I _am_ having a little flu, and I did flunk my first subject since possibly forever, but it's a good life all in all and I should be thankful.

People come and go, stupid words get spoken all the time. Breathing spaces is a must between anyone and call me a fatalistic capri, but everything happens for a reason and for my own good. Even the stupidity that piles up on top of each other like the multiply layers in photoshop.

Imagine if I got to do my industrial training in australia. The extra cash compared to doing it here isn't worth the heat, the loneliness and the depression.

Even in all this goodness I still look longingly at my closet.

Silence isn't always bad. I just hate not being able to see...

Imagine if I was born blind, and could only depend on sounds and other people's words like the online world.

I had wanted to send christmas cards this year. To the few people I appreciate their presence and help no matter how brief it was.

Like and her sister for Honey, and (one of them anyway) for getting out of her way to post Syfen's head the day after he arrives so that I could get him on the last postal day before I headed back for Malaysia for three months. It was nerve-wrecking and I was even testier than I had been since my exams.

Anyhow the only people who know that they are getting a christmas card from me at all so far is and since I let her know about it, I'll be keeping my word and try to come up with something nice soon. I'd much rather send a physical copy, but I guess a digital version would have to do >_<;

As for the others... well... christmas is already in a few...

Just when I thought I needed no more. Makira has been sitting at the back of my head since I acquired Ikari, looking in my direction longingly. I acknowledge it, and thankfully he understands that I can't find a single head that is him, and that I might actually get him in a few years time.

The trouble now is Delilah.

I'm being bombarded with so much Delilah-ism that it's not even half funny.

Well true, I am happy since I never drew him (yes, he's my cyber punk goth LOLI boy. crossdresser and webcam exhibitionist extraodinaire. And underage), but still.

Thank god no one qualifies too. Well. Angell Studio Leira did, but looking at the face again, there's just too many sculpt problems I didn't want to deal with. And the need to hybrid it cos Angell Studios' 1/4 girl body is the shatz (see : Honey), though kudos to Atticus (whose DA account is being watched in ~number304 and I can't remember it right now) for being able to pose her (and Elan) most awesomely earlier today. I promise to restring and resuede Elan so you could do awesomer things easier with him >__<; (I'll post pictures... soon.)

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this is the kind of hair Delilah has. Although possibly the curls are larger and starts a little higher up.

I wish money would just drop from the sky until I can get everything and everyone I love with me...

This is the more public version. I didn't quite want to erase the national mess I ranted about earlier, but I don't want it on my front page either.

So here's the more important (relating to you guys anyway) news :

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My house finally got internet again after about two years (probably). It's an unmetered broadband which is expensive due to out-of-faku-coverage reasons. It is also unstable, volatile and weather sensitive thus far, like internet lines everywhere in Malaysia. I swear.

So yeah. Don't hold your breath too much about my availability around. I'm not even sure this post is getting through, but I thought you guys should know.

is sleeping over tonite and tmrw nite cos she's following me to the comic convention happening over the weekend. I just can't wait to see David's Kiss again (and maybe steal him. El and Kiss Ikaris wtf) and hopefully Atticus or Hooli has got Syfen's wig with them or else I'd have to wait until March.

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If you wanna read the second half, just go view my previous journals, the one before this one.

ta.